Wednesday, March 31, 2010

come right...together

its been a minute, hasnt it? last time i was on here i was having a parlotones throw down and things got a bit heated up in here. both things that i crave and thoroughly enjoy when i experience them, but unfortunately, this was not one of those times. damn! oh, and lastly on the parlotones, i remembered that a few months back jamie and i were sitting at andiamo, this 24 hour pizza place in greenside, and we got to talking to this dude who had just finished a gig or something, i dont know. so we were quite drunk, so we struck up a conversation with this decidedly less than average fellow, and asked him who he played for. so he tells us that he plays for a number of bands, one of which he cant really disclose cos they are like, 'super famous'. so we probe, and inform him that we probably dont care and that it really makes no difference to our lives, and he then proceeds to tell us that this super rockstar band that he plays for is..wait for it....you probably guessed it by now....the parlotones! we told him that we really dont care and that it makes no difference to our lives. we shivered like we had smelt something really bad and just felt sorry for the dude. exit stage right.



but i actually have come on here to make a point today. i had a very honest, interesting conversation with a friend of mine yesterday when we were wiling away time in our hotseat, and we got onto coming right with people and our general views on the issues (in relation to how we view ourselves and our general tactics and views on the situation). so he asked me my thoughts, and the more i spoke, the more i sounded like a gay little girl who wants to marry the man she kisses for a hundred years. and as i kept saying what it was that i was saying, it sounded more and more like that, but i know that that wasnt what i was getting at, and he thought that that was where i was coming from.



so basically my views on the whole coming right issue are as follows: i love it. i think its one of the most beautiful, innocent moments that can happen between 2 people and can connect 2 individuals in a really innocently intimate way. and therefore, i dont believe in the random, drunken come right. yes, when in my younger day i was all about going out, and pulling as many guys as possible, but with my age has come wisdom, and i really dont see the point in finding some random guy, squinting your eyes to determine whether or not he is attractive, and then just lunging because it is after 2am after all and looking around, this is the best that you are going to get. yeah...no. i am okay, thanks. i find the best part of any interaction of this sort to be the build up towards it. i get no greater pleasure or satisfaction (well, before home time comes) than feeling that attraction and tension between 2 people and both wanting the same thing at that precise moment, but wondering how you are going to go about it, so you while away the time by having interesting, funny, intellectual, random conversations. getting to know each other and getting into each others heads to completely (or at least for now) understand each other, and this only increases the mutual attraction exponentially, until neither of you can take it anymore and there is this electricity in the air that is tickling your skin (and other regions) until you find the opportune moment to embrace life. *sigh* thats what i am talking about, and how it should all be!



if i kiss someone, we need to connect on a different kind of level, and not only be physically attracted to one another-alcohol can have an effect on that. we need to get each other, and i dont mean understand each other for the long haul, just understand each other for the moment which we are both involved in, and enjoy it. not superficial. not too deep either. for me, just having really good banter is good enough. or getting into a heated discussion about music, adventures, anything that ignites the passion within us (sweet lord, i sound like im writing a mills and boon novel). i dont want it to be waste. too many times i have walked away not caring and not knowing the guys name, purely because we didnt engage. and then i have wondered what on earth the point of that was and havent feel any sense of fulfillment or achievement. a complete waste of my time in fact when i could have been dancing with my friends or engaging in an interesting conversation with someone else.



i sound like a girl. i sound like an adult book novelist. i sound like i am in crazy need of a good time.



but hey, #imjussayin

rabi

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