you, me and everybody time

i got home tonight to a dark house with no electricity. i was semi-okay with this. the only thing that worried me was the cold shower that i would have to take in the morning. and this was the only thing that compelled me to drive all over the southern suburbs looking for a shop that would sell me electricity. the thought that i could light some candles, pour a fat whisky, and listen to some smooth jazz from my laptop (with whatever battery power that i was allowed) was the appealing side of the coin.

i did eventually find electricity. and as thomas edison said, "let there be light", there it was. happy? no, not really. because now that i had power, i had no real reason to still light my candles, pour the whisky, and listen to some smooth jazz. hmmmm. what now? who the fuck cares? lights off. candles on. whisky poured. and django reinhardt coming out of the speakers. i call this my little piece of heaven.

alone time has got to be the most underrated thing in the world. we all seek love and belonging to social groups, and want to be accepted by these groups. to be constantly surrounded by people. feeling really uncomfortable when we are alone. i know a lot of people who can't sit in a cafe, let alone, go to a movie without someone with them. i find these alone times to be the most fulfilling.

sitting on your own, and getting comfortable in your own space is the biggest reward you can give to yourself. it's time that you allow yourself to just be you, with no judgment from people on the outside. you can dictate your thoughts, come to your own conclusions, make your own decisions. think about who it is that you really are, when you don't have other people around defining you.

i'm a huge advocate for alone time. it is something that unfortunately i never get the luxury of having. but when i do get it, oh boy do i cherish it. moments when you are by yourself cannot be ruined. there is no vibe killer, or party pooper. only you. just the way you came out of this world, and the way you will leave it, alone.

we do need people. but we also need ourselves. so take time, to just be with you. once in a while. now pour yourself that glass of wine, and grab that dvd/book/magazine/porn item/crossword puzzle/sudoku book/journal, and spend some quality time with you.

but hey, #imjussayin
rabi